It has been almost three months since Olympic swimmer, Lisa Curry and her ex-husband Grant Kenny confirmed their oldest child Jaimi Lee Curry Kenny had passed away following a private battle with a long-term illness, at age 33.

In a heartbreaking post, Lisa has taken to Instagram to share an insight into her grieving process.

In a lengthy post alongside a photo of herself gazing out on a lake, Lisa writes:

“There’s a few certainties in life… birth, death and change.

“Some change is joyful and exhilarating, opening doors and the new direction found propels you to new and exciting heights and adventures.

“Some change is out of your control leaving you empty and uncertain… and suddenly your whole world is turned upside down. Everything you once knew is now not as it was.

“Every positive and fun thought you once had is now in doubt and challenged.

“A situation you’ve never been in before can feel daunting, uncomfortable, filled with challenges, problems, mistakes and fear, not having any idea of what to do, where to go or how to do it, if you need help or if you can do it on your own?

“Sometimes when I’ve been in situations where I haven’t known what to do and I’ve been on my own… I’ve had no choice but to just work it out myself.

“Did i succeed? Sometimes. Sometimes not… but it wasn’t whether I won or lost, succeeded or failed, changed or not – it’s what it made of me trying… and those lessons are for life. What those changes made of me was far greater than the result. I became stronger, and more determined, or on the other side… softer and more forgiving…”

Lisa Curry’s eldest daughter, Jaimi passed away in September following a long illness.

Lisa goes on to say, that while she is being advised to talk through her grief with a medical profession she is choosing to work through it on her own.

“People are telling me to seek out help.. with psychologists, doctors, people who have been through what I am facing at the moment … but I know in my heart, that I actually have the answers myself,” she writes.

“Somehow, this change I find myself in now is testing my very being. Some days I don’t even feel like me anymore, or being me anymore. It feels like it’s changing my direction and I’m ok with that. Because I know… change can be good.

Lisa finishes the post by saying:

“It’s a process… and I’m not quite sure where to start, but soon I ll figure it out. I know that one small thing leads to another, then leads to another until what’s achieved is a big thing. It’s just that I don’t know which small thing to start with is yet ……why is that so damn hard?”

On September 15, a day after Jaimi passed away, Lisa shared a powerful tribute to her daughter on Instagram.

“Our hearts are completely broken. 💔 So loved. So beautiful. So kind to everyone…. So painful. I can barely breathe,” the 58-year-old began.

“Jaimi will forever be remembered as a caring, bright and loving soul who always put others before herself. Her love of flowers, cooking, art, decorating, photography, babies, the beach, and helping others will always be remembered.”

“Our hearts are broken and the pain is unbearable but we cherish every wonderful moment we got to share with our treasured and so loved first child.”

Mourning the loss of her daughter, Lisa says she doesn’t “even feel like me anymore”.

The I’m A Celeb star went on to thank the medical professionals who cared for Jaimi during her illness.

“We thank all the paramedics, support staff and the incredible team at the Sunshine Coast University Hospital for their tireless commitment to give us the extra time we were able to spend with Jaimi,” the mother-of-three said.

“It goes without saying that this is a very difficult time for our family and all who knew and loved Jaimi so very much.”

“Rest in peace my beautiful baby. I will miss you every sunrise, I will miss you when the sun is shining and the birds are singing. I will miss you when the clouds are dark and stormy and when the rainbow appears. I will miss you when I close my eyes. I will miss you when I open my eyes. I will miss our long hugs and long chats. I will miss watching, feeling and knowing your love for your sister and brother, your little nephew, Cleo, your Ma and dad😞.”

Lisa finished her powerful essay saying she was in disbelief that her daughter was gone.

“I just can’t believe you’re not here anymore. I sit and just shake my head. It doesn’t seem real or right. You will forever be with me in my heart Jaimi. I love you so much. 🌸👼💕.”

Jaimi is survived by her parents Lisa Curry,  Grant Kenny, 57, younger sister Morgan, younger brother Jett and half-sister, Trixie.